A few words about me....

So, after a long spell of not dating, I've signed up once again to search for love. I've posted my pictures, explained what I'm looking for in a potential mate and have been fielding many possible candidates for the love of my life, my Soulmate. Soulmate...what an awesome responsibility. Sure everyone wants someone that mirrors their best qualities and forgives their less than perfect imperfections. But a soulmate? Really? That is a little much to ask for.

I was asked in an email to "tell me a little more about yourself" and realized there just might be a few things you don't know about me...

I love reruns of Frasier.
I love a ripe mango.
I get up really early in the morning. I mean really early. 4:30 or 5:00 in the morning early.
I am fierce, kind, witty, smart, creative and I know where I stand in my life.
I stopped watching the news a couple of years ago because of the negative effect it could have on me in the long run and I don't think I have missed anything that would have made a difference in the way I live my life.
I enjoy my time alone but sometimes get a little lonely.
I have a delicious dark side that comes out when necessary.
I have had more than one inappropriate drop of the f-bomb.
I have been with many people at the moment of their death because of my Hospice and Oncology background. It is an awesome and profoundly life altering experience.
I have learned more about living from people who are dying than any book or other experience could have ever taught me.
I am a wonderful, true and loyal friend but I have lousy "friendship" skills.
I delivered an awesome eulogy at my mother's memorial service with my voice cracking only once. She would have been proud and humbled at the depth of my love and the immensity of my grief.
I am a deep thinker and I consider the big picture before I react...OK this has come with experience and growing older. And speaking of growing older...
I looked in the mirror the other day and said out loud "you are going to be 57 years old on your next birthday" and wondered where the time went.
I like to wear a little black dress just because.
I wake up every morning with profound gratitude for just being me. I wouldn't change a thing.
Sometimes I go out to the pool without sunscreen...never without sunscreen on my face but sometimes without sunscreen hitting the other parts of my body.
I wear bikinis proudly, not because I have a great body but because every inch of me I have earned and I'm not ashamed.
I view the spider veins on my legs as the roadmap of my life, how they began when I was pregnant, and as I have grown older they have grown with me. And I love each one of them and what part of me they represent.
I am deep down happy with myself.
I have a daughter that hasn't spoken to me for several years for reasons unknown to me and it has taken me years to come to the conclusion that perhaps it was my cosmic responsibility to just get her on the earth and her path is her own and doesn't include me.
My son loves me unconditionally and he is tall and handsome and looks like me.
My granddaughter thinks she has the coolest Nana on the planet. She told me so.
Sometimes when I'm looking a word up in the dictionary I sing the alphabet song in my head...or outloud.
I don't run my dishwasher until it is full. Same goes with the washing machine.
I am morally responsible.
I consider my own needs first, not from a narcissistic point of view but from a place of understanding that if my own cup isn't full first I have nothing to freely give.
I have been in therapy off an on for years and through the loss of my mother I was divinely led to a therapist that has changed my life and finally helped me put my demons to rest.
I believe in the power of the Universe and what you put attention on grows.
I believe in positive thinking and the laws of attraction.
I am a little wacky sometimes, I love all kinds of music and I dance in the shower.
I like to watch Sunday Morning.
If a clerk gives me too much change I always give it back. In my book, keeping it would be like stealing.
There is nothing better than a good cup of coffee. OK, maybe lots of things but at 5AM I can't think of much else that would be as good.
My brother is my best friend.
My guilty pleasure (one of several) is a Chips A'Hoy cookie and I buy a bag and keep them in my glovebox for cookie emergencies.
I have a wickedly awesome sense of humor and can find something funny in nearly every situation.
I am kind and loving.
I have an entire tribe of fabulous women in my life that assure me I am never alone.
I just returned from a month in Costa Rica and I was scared to death to get on the plane, however once I did I didn't look back.
I really enjoy pedicures and massages.
I am fiscally responsible.
I wonder what it is that leads women to desperate decisions and settling for less than they want or deserve. Probably why I'm still single after all these years.
I can be a real hard ass when necessary.
For the most part I mind my own business and am slow to judge others.

So as the journey of my life continues, so does my learning. More about me, more about others and mostly more about life in the great scheme of things. I've learned to understand why my priorities are my priorities. I don't wonder anymore "why did I react that way?" I usually know.

In the end, the only opinion that really matters is the opinion I have of myself. I don't have to understand everything to accept it, and I don't have to accept everything I understand. Sometimes it just is what it is. And that is enough. So the lesson for today is that I love my body more than unanswered questions. I am the authority on me and I know where all the pieces fit. I no longer fall apart, I fall together.

Have a day filled with self love and adoration just because you have the privilege of being you. I leave you with a question...what is it that others don't know about you?
XO,
Karen